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And So It Goes . . .

Filed under: Personal, emo post — Dave @ 10:58 am

I’ve been involved, over the past 9 months, with a very beautiful and wonderful woman.

She has added to my life, believed in me and my ability, lifted me up, and became the centre of my world.

So, now, suddenly, it’s over.

What happened?
Why did it happen?
Was there any way I (or she) could have prevented it?
Can we get it back?
Will we love again?
Will we be friends afterward?

These are the questions that run through our heads with unyielding frequency.
The aspects of our lives together are rewound and replayed with incredible speed as we try to pinpoint a moment that, perhaps, we could have changed had we realized the outcome and fallout.
Even if we were to be able to recognize the moment in time when a decision was made, a question was posed or an ultimatum was issued; we can no longer go back and change what has occurred.
We are, merely, torturing ourselves by going through this process.

Hopefully, we learn from the experience, and take that learning forward to the next relationship in order to, maybe, make that one work better than this one.

I am saddened by the fact that this did not work out.
I truly thought that this woman would be “the one” - I never put that much pressure on myself or on any situation but in this case, I did think that maybe she and I would grow old together.
I believe she loved me and still loves me. She had told me that I was her one and only - she had never felt this way about any other man in her life; including her former husband. It is truly too bad then because I know that she will be hurting for some time to come. I wish I could ease her pain but there is nothing that I can do.

For the time being, I will relish all the good times I had with her because they were plenty.
I will forget the bad times; because truly they were few.
I will still hold hope for the future; because there is always hope.
I will give myself time to heal.
I will give myself time to reflect.
I will do my best to comprehend what I can learn from this;
And take comfort in the knowing that I did my best at loving her.

Dave

TripTik Entry #1

Filed under: General Crap — Dave @ 7:54 pm

Let me recount the last 24+ hours for you folks…
October 31/08 - 18:00 EST - Pearson International Airport - Toronto Ontario
Waiting at Pearson is tough.
The anticipation of a long journey, the numbing buttocks from sitting and flipping page after page of today’s paper, and the $11 pints of Heineken all make it difficult to wait.

The Waiting
Boarding is, needless to say, late. It was scheduled for 18:10. As I write this it is now 18:30 and the inbound American Airlines 737 has only just arrived. So much for the 18:55 take off. Unlike any previous air journey, save for the unexpected 2006 voyage to Brazil, I am, strangely, nervous.
I leave behind a new wonderful woman in my life as well as my dog, Monty, only a year and 4 months old.
Josee is, I believe, “the one”.
I have never clicked on so many levels as I have with her.
It’s wonderful.
For now, with a boarding call still in the making I await to see what adventures are to be had at the other end of this big beautiful blue planet. . .

I’ll Be Back My Love

Cheers,
Dave